Sometimes I really hate the part of my brain that never stops looking for more knowledge. It is always driving me to find new things, new experience, meet new people, see new things. It carves a longing into my mind whenever I get stuck and it prevents me from settling down.
It feels like my mind is, and has been, forever searching for ways to quench this curiosity and I know that I am the most happy when I can find new things and learn more about the world around me.
I have dreamed about a library as the one in Beauty and the Beast or at Hogwarts for as long as I can remember. A library packed with leather bound volumes, filled with all the knowledge money could buy, and then some.
I have denied myself the pleasure of research for a very long time, mainly because I have associated research with school and grades. From now on, I will pick up a book or scan a website for the sole purpose and pleasure of, for a moment, an hour, or a day, still the desire for knowledge burning in my mind and in my chest.
Very few things are as pleasurable to me as finding connections, learning new things, or just enjoying diving headlong into wisdom and knowledge accumulated over the pass of time since the dawn of civilization.
I will no longer apologize for what I read.
I will hold my desire for knowledge and my inherent curiosity up high, and tell the world "This is me. Take it or leave it."
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