I am not a number

I am a huge fan of The Militant Baker and I make no excuses for that. I read her blog every day, I follow the Militant Baker on Facebook, and I would be so extremely happy if I somehow could attend the Body Love Conference this year.

The Militant Baker introduced me to this astonishing concept of loving myself just the way I am. Of not defining my worth based on the scale or a tape measurer, but on the fact that I exist at all.

I got introduced to the concept of beauty. Real beauty. The kind of beauty all humans have. The kind of beauty that is not defined by clothe size or numbers on a scale.

Because all bodies are beautiful. ALL bodies are BEAUTIFUL. And all bodies deserve love.

Because of this, I have added Smashing The Scale as one of my three resolutions (the other two are based to lowering my dentist costs and cutting out foods I don't like, but still eat *epic eye roll*).

I am Smashing the Scale because I am tired of the shame and guilt associated with having a body like mine.

I am Smashing the Scale because I am finally reaching a point where I love myself and yet I crash and burn every time someone tries to police my body.

I am Smashing the Scale because being healthy just doesn't seem to be enough when one is overweight. I have no medical problems associated with my body, yet people in my immediate surroundings are still on me about losing weight. If my weight causes me physical illness, I will do something about it. Until then, sod off with your weight policing.

I am Smashing the Scale because I will never be a size 0 or a size 4 or even a size 10 and I am tired of feeling ugly because of it. I am also tired of watching other beautiful people getting harassed because of someone else's body hate.

I am Smashing the Scale because at 5'8" and 210 lbs I shouldn't have to feel like an ugly giant.

I am Smashing the Scale because I shouldn't have to prove my intelligence just because I'm not a "conventional" beauty.

I am Smashing the Scale because thick, thin, or somewhere in between, no one is allowed to make you hate yourself. No one should have to hear the phrase "They would be so beautiful if they only lost/gained a few pounds."

I am Smashing the Scale because I am me and no amount of body hate, weight policing, shame, guilt, or prejudice will change that. I am a large girl. I am tall, I am fat, and I am beautiful.